Thanks God for turning the tables on me, again.

What a title right? Well by now you would think that I should've learned not to place judgement on others, but I must confess that I am still learning. Okay, to be honest it is not just the judgement thing but also me stating or proclaiming my own plan and then even years down the road God changes it on me and I feel stupid for having openly stated my life one way and it is turning out another. I have no current expamples of the plan proclaiming, but I do have a recent one of the ever so kind judgement of others.
So, enter one little haitian into my life and things aren't as they used to be. Not that they ever are when you add to your family, no matter how you go about doing it. My example, I choose to believe, is not so different from most people out there at least that is what helps me sleep at night :). So my example may not be exactly what you have said, but give me a break and at least admit that you have done something similar, please. Example: Families out in public with a child on a "leash". My comment has been, "I couldn't ever see myself using one of those. My kids stay by me for the most part, don't everyone's?" Now, back to the present time when Steeven enters our lives. I like to compare him to the Tasmanian Devil, but don't get more out of this than intended.
Side note: I tend to find myself trying to be careful about my comments about Steeven when I never do about our other three. Is that because I don't want people to take what I am saying the wrong way? Probably. From here on out realize that as I write about my kids and family I love them all with everything I am and would not even for a second change what God has given me. Good, now that is covered and I can move on!
The Tasmanian Devil as you might remember from old cartoons destroys everything in his path, acts very wild, is out of control, oh and he drools if I remember right. Steeven has similar characteristics :). Which brings us back to the "judging others" issue. The longer Steeven is here the more I feel the undesireable need to get a leash! Yes, I said it, my child requires a leash! There you go God, take something I made a comment about and make it applicable to my life. Gotta love it. So what do I do, I post a comment on facebook to get a feel for what others think about the leash. What do you think the comments were? Well of course everyone loves them and are "pro leash" so that just leaves me as the only one who judged those poor families :(, insert bad feelings about myself here.
You would think I would learn, but I must admit that I still haven't gotten this one yet. A little pat on my back for improvement though. The thing is, why do we as a people look at situations from the outside and make our own unfounded judgements almost automatically? Like the "leash" thing, I never once considered that a child might have special needs, been adopted and not aware of boundaries yet, or whatever the situation might be. Even better yet, is it really my place to put my judgement on someone else just because I might not agree with them? For some reason I tend to see things in my own bubble of life. Meaning that I hold everything I see up to compare it with my life. Sometimes that leads to judging others, but more often than not it actually leads to me judging myself and putting unrealistic expectations on myself and my family. Ugh, this has turned into a therapy session, well at least it is free!